i am a runner

I ran for 25 minutes straight today and from now on, I just keep running. My C25K program hasn't officially ended but I'm done with the run/walk portion and now it just tells me to run for time. It's a scary place to be but it's an amazing feeling. There's nothing to fall back on and nothing to stop for. I can do it and that's almost as difficult to admit as not being able to do it. I have no more excuses because I've been training to eliminate them. I feel vulnerable and afraid to succeed. The most difficult part of succeeding and going for my goals is that I'm invested. The stakes are higher because I care. I become accustom to mediocre and settling for okay. To try and fail or heaven forbid, to try and succeed seemed like too much to risk. For such a long time I couldn't handle either outcome. I was fragile and depressed and fearful of what might happen. I didn't have to change but I was definitely at a crossroads for the millionth time. I chose differently in January and I've been making small changes that hopefully keep adding up.

I continue to chip away at my fears but to put my success and accomplishment simply, i am a runner!